"I wanna live in a land called Paradise..."
Contemplation has its ups and downs but the end is always profound.
Life is a journey of contemplation.
Some realizations however are harder on the heart than fear of realizing them.
I think I've experienced that to a whole new level in recent times.
Faith wavers.
Sometimes I look around, inward, and I fall in love all over again. Faith renewed, beauty seen and calmness attained.
Other times I'm too afraid to look inward knowing that what it'll reveal is pain of past mistakes that don't fade away.
Some mistakes never fade.
What do you do when you want something so badly you'd do anything to get it?
What do you do when you need something so badly but you get caught up in what you want that you lose sight of necessity?
What do you do when Jannah is laid out for you and you stop dead in your tracks, your heart stops beating, your feet stop moving....
...when you see the beauty around you but your stuck in moment, in a desire...
...and you want so badly to move forward, to push past it but something is holding you back.
What do you do when your soul and body don't match...when they're not in the same place...in the same state?
...and how do you get them back again?
Questions I've found myself searching for answers to...
The struggles are expected, welcomed at times.
Without them I wonder if I'd fall in love with the deen as much as I have.
My thoughts aren't even coherent. I suppose when so many questions are unanswered, conclusions are hard to come by.
Insha'Allah my life will be full of struggles, big and small, insha'Allah mistakes will be forgiven and hearts will be purified.
Insha'Allah patience will become a virtue I possess and love will be something that I give endlessly.
Insha'Allah Allah will show me a way to Paradise.
Insha'Allah the pain of the past and mistakes of yesterday will melt from my heart and I will soon feel my soul guide my body towards doing all the good that can be done in this world and lead me down that path that only the righteous travel.
May Allah give us all the strength to fight off the temptation of this world.
May Allah give us all the Iman to bounce back from sins committed and race towards making up for them in goodness and truth.
Ya Allah, forgive us our sins.
Ameen.
"The night is always darkest just before dawn..."
Ma'salaama.
Life is a journey of contemplation.
Some realizations however are harder on the heart than fear of realizing them.
I think I've experienced that to a whole new level in recent times.
Faith wavers.
Sometimes I look around, inward, and I fall in love all over again. Faith renewed, beauty seen and calmness attained.
Other times I'm too afraid to look inward knowing that what it'll reveal is pain of past mistakes that don't fade away.
Some mistakes never fade.
What do you do when you want something so badly you'd do anything to get it?
What do you do when you need something so badly but you get caught up in what you want that you lose sight of necessity?
What do you do when Jannah is laid out for you and you stop dead in your tracks, your heart stops beating, your feet stop moving....
...when you see the beauty around you but your stuck in moment, in a desire...
...and you want so badly to move forward, to push past it but something is holding you back.
What do you do when your soul and body don't match...when they're not in the same place...in the same state?
...and how do you get them back again?
Questions I've found myself searching for answers to...
The struggles are expected, welcomed at times.
Without them I wonder if I'd fall in love with the deen as much as I have.
My thoughts aren't even coherent. I suppose when so many questions are unanswered, conclusions are hard to come by.
Insha'Allah my life will be full of struggles, big and small, insha'Allah mistakes will be forgiven and hearts will be purified.
Insha'Allah patience will become a virtue I possess and love will be something that I give endlessly.
Insha'Allah Allah will show me a way to Paradise.
Insha'Allah the pain of the past and mistakes of yesterday will melt from my heart and I will soon feel my soul guide my body towards doing all the good that can be done in this world and lead me down that path that only the righteous travel.
May Allah give us all the strength to fight off the temptation of this world.
May Allah give us all the Iman to bounce back from sins committed and race towards making up for them in goodness and truth.
Ya Allah, forgive us our sins.
Ameen.
"The night is always darkest just before dawn..."
Ma'salaama.
posted by Wafa at 12:09 AM
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